Wednesday, September 23, 2009

omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg.

seriously, what did I do to diserve this miserable existence?!?! I like to think I'm a pretty reasonable human being, and that I don't deserve all of this insanity.

we're being kicked out of our apartment, effective oct. 1st. we haven't even fully moved in yet, due to the leaks/mold/everything falling apart. my bedroom doesn't even have a ceiling anymore!!!!!! and, to top it off, they only want to give us half of our money back despite the deplorable living conditions.
to top it off, my old roommate skipped town for 2 weeks and she owes me money from bills from our last apartment. I notified her multiple times and she kept saying she'd drop if off at work, but she didn't. now those bills are going to be late.
oscar is losing his hair due to the stress of the move. I took him to the vet and the bill came to roughly $145. I only made $190 last week after taxes, and I had to pay the vet bill up-front. I didn't even have any food!! I spent my last $30 today at trader joe's. I get paid tomorrow, but I have to pay all of the bills from my last apt. in full since Christina didn't give me her half, and there goes my paycheck.

we need to move by wednesday and if we don't get all of our money back, I can't afford another down payment. and even though oscar is on antibiotics due to his skin condition, he has an upper respiratory infection now (probably due to the mold in the basement) and I can't afford to take him to the vet. I broke down in tears today in front of my roommate because I'm so worried about him.

I really just want to die right now.

Monday, September 14, 2009

ugh. I really don't know what to do these days.
this is my last week of school before my 2 week summer break. I have a lot of work left to do until then, and hopefully I pass all of my classes. this has been an extremely stressful quarter.

I moved into my apartment on the 1st and I'm still living by myself (well, oscar is here too obviously). my roommate's bedroom keeps flooding through the ceiling every time it rains, and so does our basement. they keep trying to fix it but nothing is working. it's annoying because we still have boxes everywhere because we can't unpack a lot of things. we were hoping to have had a house warming party by now, but it keeps getting pushed back farther. at least we haven't paid rent yet!

it's hard to believe that after living here for 2+ years, I still find myself miserable, and alone. I feel like giving up.